I accepted myself as second choice and when I did that, I stopped believing that I deserved to be somebody's first choice. Then I wasn't even good enough to be the second choice anymore. I lost the woman who deserves to love and be loved. The last time I lost her, it took a small miricle to find her. How do I find her again? How do I tell her not to give up on herself, that she does deserve to be someone's fisrt choice.....